(OUR STORY)

“What does love mean to you?” To me; love means to like and want that soul unconditionally and desperately, even if we keep hurting ourselves in the process…

Jesse sluggishly rolled over on his bed and hissed loudly as he threw away his phone. “Are you alright?” His roommate asked with a frightened face. “I am fine.” He murmured while he hissed again and gave him a fiery look. He buried his face on the pillow thinking how long he can endure living in such boy’s hostel with naked boys walking around having their dicks dangling at his sight every day. To worsen the situation, he has been snooping on Tinder for over a week but he couldn’t get a match to hook up with. He hissed again as he raised his face and picked the phone that kept beeping beside him.

Jesse was extremely surprised when he saw numerous notifications from the hook up app. He quickly sits up and adjusted himself while he starts reading them one after the other. “Hey handsome; are you a Lagos state university student? Are you staying in the hostel? Do you mind coming to my place now for some fun?” The young man who matched him sent over five messages at once. “It looks like he is also desperate.” Jesse said to himself while he snoops around the guy’s profile. He was carried away by the guy’s pictures already, tall, black and masculine. He didn’t hesitate before accepting the invitation as he jumped up and started getting ready…

After a few minutes’ drive from the university, he arrived at the young guy’s place. He isn’t looking bad; probably within his early thirties. William welcomes him as they walked into his apartment. He grabbed Jesse’s waist from behind and started kissing him immediately. Jesse giggled with a smile as he turned and grabbed his nipples; he smashed them with his fingers while William moaned a little and stared at him. “Let’s get on with this boy.” He said as he placed a kiss on Jesse’s lips again. The kiss lasted for almost 2 minutes before he quickly unbuttoned his long sleeved shirt and unbuckled his belt. He was moaning hard as he kisses Jesse aggressively. He removed his shirt and his trouser, moved his lips down to Jesse’s neck. Jesse slowly turned him over and climbed on him, sucking his nipples as he moaned harder.

The sex lasted for almost an hour, they were lying on the bed and panting when Jesse quickly stood up and started getting dressed. “What’s going on boy?” William asked staring at him. Jesse groaned as he struggled with his trousers. “I have a test in like 30 minutes.” He replied quickly as he picked his bag. William quickly jumped off the bed as he also get dressed. “I will drop you then so you can make it.” He said as he picked his car keys while they head out. It was a quick and quiet drive. Jesse opened the car when William parked the car. He was about leaving when he called him back. “Hey Jesse!” He called while Jesse turned immediately. “Let’s do this again.” He said with a smile. Jesse nodded his head with a smile and turned away…

*****

TWO MONTHS LATER…

Have you ever fall in love at first sight? Have you ever get hooked after a one night stand? Have you ever demanded more after a hook up? Well, that is what becomes of William and Jesse’s situation. He has technically moved in with William and they are amazing together, life is treating them fair with their silent and secret relationship.

Jesse was lying on William’s laps while he was caressing his hair. “What do you want to do after graduation Jesse?” He asked while playing with his hair. Jesse was quiet for a while. “I don’t really know. The economy in this country is shitty so I will go on with whatever that is available.” He said. “But I really want to be an author you know. Just that writings are not well appreciated these days.” He said staring at William.

He giggled little. “And who said that? You will have to try before concluding that. Have you ever written or published a book?” William asked. He smiled and adjusted his position on his laps. “I always want to you know. I always try to write one, but whenever I picked my pen to start it out, it just turns into poetry or a short story and I can’t resist its quality for that. But I do really hope to publish a novel one day.” He said with a smile. William also smiled and slowly placed a kiss on his head. “Don’t worry boy, you will surely get to do that one day.” He said with a smile also.

Jesse quickly sat up and faced him. “What about you? What are your plans? You are getting old you know.” He teased and they all laughed. William sighed deeply after a while and faced Jesse. “You know I am a bisexual right? And you know that I have to get married one day right?” He asked with a worried voice. Jesse smiled and holds his hands. “What do you take me for William? A Kid?” He asked sarcastically. He sighed as he hold his hands tightly again. “Come on Will, I know of course you will get married. I know the situation of this part of the world where we are from and especially for a young successful man like you, it is definitely not easy.” He said looking at him.

Jesse smiled again and moved closer to him. “I will not abandon you because of that Will; all I am asking for is for you not to abandon me also.” He said staring at him. William exhaled loudly as he hugged him tightly. “I just want you to know that there is someone I love the same way I love you Jesse, I am not being selfish, I just don’t know how to share my love among you two.” He said and they all kept quiet for a while. Jesse sighed deeply and stared at him. “And who is this person? Does she know about me?” He asked curiously. William slowly picked his phone and scrolled through it for a while. He later dropped it back. “No, I can’t tell you much, when I am ready to introduce you two, I will definitely do it.” He said.

Jesse sighed again and frown a little; he was acting clingy as he folded his arms and move aside. William took a deep breath and holds Jesse’s hands. “I know you are curious, but I promise you that this is for the best. I wouldn’t want to keep introducing you to ladies which I am not sure of a future with. The thing is I can change them anytime but you will remain forever Jesse.” He said while Jesse smiled a little. He sighed again and hugged him tightly. “I don’t know what the future holds Jesse; but I promise you that no matter what happens; I will consider you first. Your happiness and safety will always be my priority.” He said with a smile and hugged him tightly.

Jesse buried himself in William’s arms with his nose filled with his scent. “That will be enough for me William.” He said with a smile. They cuddled for a while before he kissed him again. “That reminds me, I will be travelling home next week.” William said briefly. Jesse quickly sat up and faced him. “I hope all is well?” He asked curiously. He nodded his head and grabbed him back. “Come here, all is well. I am just visiting my parents.” He said as he cuddled him more. Jesse groaned a little and adjusted himself while oh his laps. “What is that hard thing poking my back?” He asked with a smirk on his face. William smiled as he grabbed his lips. “Come here naughty boy, you surely know what that is.” He said as they both laughed and begin kissing each other…

*****

William was sweating as he faced Sarah and her family. He was seating on the floor with his head bent. His father took a deep breath and folded his arms. “I think there will be no cause for alarm here. I am sure my son here will be responsible for the pregnancy.” He said looking at Sarah’s father. He let out a sigh of relief as he also adjusted himself. “If that is the case; then we are satisfied here, the girl should move in with him till we make proper arrangements for marriage.” He said staring at her. William was still sitting numb as he listened to them decides his fate. He was sweating profusely as he stared at Sarah dragged her trolley box and set to follow him. They bid them farewell and set out to Williams’s place.

The journey was long and quiet, they were both having different issues on their minds, William who was sighing all the while decided to break the silence by facing Sarah. “But why didn’t you tell me about this Sarah? Why would you take it straight home?” He asked staring at her. She giggled as she paused the gum she was chewing. “This is the third one William and I am beginning to doubt your love for me anymore. I cannot afford risking my life to abort another pregnancy for you. Is it until I become old that you will start talking about marriage?” She yelled.

He took a deep breath as he slowly parked the car by the road side. “Calm down Sarah. That is not what I meant. Of course I love you. It is just that I am not ready to get committed into marriage.” He said looking at her. “And besides; I am…” He was about spilling his sexuality when he quickly zips it up. He sighed and closed his eyes for a while. “Okay, let’s just continue talking about this at home.” He said as he started the car and zoomed off. He drove her to a separate house since Jesse has literally moved in with him and he can’t send him out for another girl.

“This apartment looks new. I thought I will be staying with you.” Sarah said she walked around the place. He sighed as he sat on the couch. “This is a rental apartment. I live in a company’s property and we won’t be confortable sharing it. Besides; I need to let my bosses know before I can fully move in with you.” He lied looking at her. He slowly stood up and dropped a bunch of money on the table for her. “We need to take things slowly Sarah, I am honestly not ready for this. I will for sure take care of you in every possible way till we decide on what do next. But please, due to nature of my work, you shouldn’t expect me here often.” He added.

She was still staring and admiring the apartment when he finished talking. “You don’t have to worry William; you dare not take care of me.” She said sarcastically. He sighed as he nodded his head. “Just let me know when there is anything you need. I will send a car for you later within the week and I will also see how we can schedule hospital appointments. Take care of yourself Sarah.” He said as he walked out.

Sarah was mesmerized seeing the enormous apartment he got for her. She always knew that she had a good man since she started dating Williams. “This place will be big enough for me to stay with my brother, let me let him know my arrival here.” She said as she picked her phone and placed a call on him…

*****

Jesse was standing almost naked in the kitchen when William walked into the house. he looked very stressed as he sighed and fell on the couch. Jesse slowly walked out of the kitchen and approached him. He stood behind him and massaged his shoulder gently. “You must be tired from the trip right?” He asked with a soft voice. William nodded a little as he turned and stared at his seductive body. “Don’t’ worry; I will take good care of you.” Jesse said as he dragged William into the bathroom.

He took a good shower and later came to have dinner. “Can’t I just keep you as my house wife Jesse? This is the extreme a lady can also do.” William said as he was enjoying his meal. Jesse smiled a little as he poured orange juice in his glass. “So how are things in the village? I hope all is well?” He asked staring at him. He almost chocked at Jesse’s question. “Things are good. Nothing happened there.” He stammered. Jesse smiled at him as he slowly stood up. “I will be in the room then.” He said as he walked away.

William was sweating profusely as he stared at him. He became worried and guilty instantly. He couldn’t believe that he is actually lying to Jesse. Tears dropped on his face bit he cleaned them immediately. “I am sorry Jesse. I promise to stay away from Sarah immediately if she gives birth and it will be me and you alone.” He said as he regretted hiding the truth from the boy…

*****

It has been two weeks since Sarah moved in the new apartment. Life has been fair to her as William has been taking care of her. She has nothing to complain about and she can feel his love and care. Even though he isn’t staying with her, he always checked on her often and answered her requests.

Sarah was sitting in the living room when she heard a car parked at the compound. She quickly checked because she wasn’t expecting William. To her surprise, it’s her junior brother. “Jesse!” She shouted as she jumped and hugged him. He also hugged her happily. She was extremely happy seeing him because she has been expecting him for a while but he kept on defaulting. “Wow, sis; you are really being a big man’s wife right now.” Jesse said staring and fantasizing the apartment. She giggled a little as she walked to the fridge and get a drink for him. “Oh common, this is just a small portion of how generous my man is.” She said as she offered him the drink.

She took a seat opposite him and crossed her legs. “Seriously, you should move in here Jesse. It’s better than your hostel.” She said looking at him. He was quiet for a while because he is currently living with his boyfriend. “Oh, common sister, I’d prefer it there.” He said. “Where is your fiancé? I have never met him.” He asked trying to avoid the previous conversation. She slowly stood up. “Oh, William. I have his picture hanged in the room. You can check it out.” She said as she walked to the kitchen.

Jesse’s mind skipped a little as he heard the name being mentioned. His heart was pounding really heard when he sluggishly walked into the room. He couldn’t rest but to see the picture and clear the doubt on his mind. He was taken aback when he saw his large portrait being hanged on the wall. Jesse was sweating profusely as he stared at William’s picture. His feet couldn’t carry him as he almost fell down. He quickly grabbed the edge of the bed to avoid falling. He was panting really hard as different thoughts stroked his mind…

William was surprised when he saw a car moving out of Sarah’s apartment, but he was even more surprised to see the car, its actually one of his cars that Jesse was riding these days. He couldn’t take the suspense so he walked into the house furiously to quench his curiosity. He met Sarah arranging the dining table. “Oh, you came just in time; my brother is here to say hi.” Sarah said happily. William was shocked but he maintained himself. “Your brother? Where is he?” He asked curiously.

Sarah began calling out Jesse but he was nowhere to be found. “Can you imagine? I left Jesse right here checking out your pictures while I entered the kitchen to prepare food. I wonder when he left.” She said looking surprised. At this point, William stared at her with his mouth agape with the mention of Jesse. He became certainly sure that it was his Jesse and he is Sarah’s brother. Tears started rushing out of his body. His brained stopped and he began feeling dizzy instantly. He managed to give Sarah and excuse as he walked out to his car. He could barely breathe when he drove his car back to his apartment but Jesse was not there. He tried reaching him but all to no avail…

A MONTH LATER…

William became extremely worried because Jesse has been lost for a month, he couldn’t even reach out to any of his family because he has no explanation to give concerning the boy’s disappearance. He was sitting in the house with a swollen face when a letter came in for him. he quickly collected and opened it hoping it should be from Jesse and behold, it was from him. it is a small note and a book. He slowly opened the letter as he began reading it…

“Dear William!”

“It is with great pleasure embedded with guilt that I wrote this letter to you. I am sure I would have frozen in the mortuary when you would have received this letter. I don’t know if you have figured out the reason of my disappearance but I hate to break it out to you, even though I have to anyways. William, you are my definition of love and happiness. You taught me how to love myself better. You gave me a glance to happiness and opportunity to a secured life. I was happy being with you even though it pained me knowing that my love is being shared. I always thought I could bear living with you while you are with some girls but little did I know that the scenario is way beyond our imagination. William; I couldn’t bear the thought of sharing you with my sister. The guilt has eaten me up that I could barely breathe. I feel suffocated just by thinking about it. I cannot live to tell this awful story William. I am sorry if my decision hurts you but I felt this is the only way to ease the burning flame in my heart. I know this is a heard step to take but I never regret it, at least, with this experience; I was able to fulfill my dream of writing a story. Our story will definitely live long in the hearts of human… Till we meet to part no more. With love from Jesse Oluwayomi.”

*****

William was shedding tears profusely as he stared at the book titled “OUR STORY.” The inscription on the cover caught his attention as he started shedding tears again. “A heart breaking story of a man who fell in love with siblings!”

He quickly entered his room, picked a few things and drove out of the house…

WILLIAM’S POV…

THREE YEARS LATER…

It has been three years since I left Nigeria; my life has not gotten any better here in South Africa. I have managed to start up a small farming business so I could survive. I don’t know how life ended with Sarah and the unborn baby, I couldn’t bear the looks on our family members so I had no choice but leaving. I left a detailed note about everything to them and I shared my properties accordingly. I am sure they will never forgive me for what I did…

I slowly adjusted myself as I flip the last page of the book I was reading while sitting on a small rock by the river side. Reading Jesse’s book has become part of me as I do it every day. I never get bored of it because that is the only way I feel him around me. I couldn’t forgive myself for his premature death so I have to punish myself in this life time to compensate his death. Tears rolled down on my face as I stared at the cover of the book that was occupied with Jesse’s face.

These past four years has been the best and worst years of my life. Luckily for me, I found the love but unfortunately, I watched that love slipped out of my life all because of how greedy and selfish I was. I do not have anyone to blame for my life turning out this way except myself. Maybe Jesse wouldn’t have die if I told him about Sarah earlier, maybe he wouldn’t have committed suicide if I stay with him alone instead of chasing girls.

I have learned a lot of lessons from the story of my life, and I am sure you would believe me that not all love stories have a happy ending, enjoy it while it still lasts, you will never know what the next turn might bring…

 

THE END!

BY MSQUARE!

Inspired by the Indian movie; Cobalt Blue!